_paint my life_

2006-08-23T01:01:00.000+08:00

todae is my second dae of study week.yesterdae nt very effective.juz do one or two tutorial onli..at this speed,im nt gonna finish all my topics..sigh..todae tuition cancelled..hope tt boy can do well.tmr nit to teach him science..argh...im so bored but lazy to study..my study room change the layout..hope it provides better study environment..todae gonna study with sis till morning..now slack first..she having her prelim next week too..all da best gal!!

hope everyone busy mugging...jia you!! juz a little thing which i got frm mail for entertainment.

now trying to mug till next morning wit sis..tmr she nt goin sch..
get well soon jason!!

2006-08-13T02:04:00.000+08:00

Went to eat buffet with dear and his parents..they al so nice to me.todae his dad's birthdae..woohoo..happy birthdae!! catch the movie click at 10 plus pm..oh man..i laugh and tear during the show..very NICE and meaningful! =) been a wonderful hanging out jason..his mom so cute.=p

on tues,watched fireworks with dear.wow..its like so beautiful..the gals beside me are like so ah lian kind...they keep wowing and sae comments like "this is so romantic" (in chinese) haha..i took a few video clips and a shot..aft the display went to look for food,end up no food..all fast food..my house got gathering too..eat and drink..

read the news abt the terrible ugly behaviour of singaporeans on the fireworks dae...so sad..but quite shocked..wonder how the traffic resume if all cars stop there..

went to planet shakers concert on fri..alright.thanx buddy for inviting me..ate supper with her,her da jie and jason..

lazy to blog le..forgot wat i wan to write le..exams coming..muz jia you le!! and muz save..spend alot this week..keep taking cabs

2006-08-02T01:48:00.000+08:00

finally aft two weeks i watched a movie.watched pirates of caribbean..missed the first 20 mins..brought oyster mee sua in to eat..the smell so strong..these two days like alot of things happen..good and bad..but somehow it make me realised alot of things..i wanna thank my sis for being there for me wenever i nit help or wat at home..i love you emilyn!!

jason been a darling to me too=) aft last nite's nightmare and afew stories and blah blah...he pei me take cab home..thank you..pray tt he will continue to work hard for his A's..

im waiting for nov 24 to come..cher's birthday! den we can go take our thoery and practical together..i wanna thank the lord for giving me such a good fren..and being my sis's gd cell leader..

its time for me to buck up and study!! exams coming..

2006-07-23T22:40:00.000+08:00

i hate being sick..

a sickly weekend..

but a time for me to relax

weekend fun ruin

2006-07-20T21:59:00.000+08:00

a bad day

2006-07-19T21:32:00.000+08:00

todae i did a terrible thing in front of my student..argh...

my typing skills been cranky lately..every word got mistake..wonder why..seems like every word nits to be edit aft finish typing..

todae sociology test was alright though just like wat i expect..difficult..i mixed up all my conlict and funtionlist concept..nvm..its over..more tests to come..i nit to catch up on alot of things..alot of new topics i dun understand a single ting..

tmr mct anoda project..so far got 3 projects waiting to be complete..nt bad working with yong chye but seems like i very demanding..hope we can finish fast..mct left programming..the major part,sociology left powerpoint and oral presentation..muz jia you le!!

You oso muz jia you!! dun ever give up,dun worry abt the results..juz do ur best!

cant wait for this weekend!!!

2006-07-12T23:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wonder wat is my mission in life? wat i suppose to do? wat if i die, wat will happen?

my poor little bro having big red patches on his body..pity him..make him cant slp well and feel so uncomfortable..compared to him, somehow my childhood life might be better den him..sigh..the world is changing..

i miss him.wonder how's he is feeling and wat he is doing now..i dun dare to msg or call him..i feel so useless again..hope he get well soon and at the same time gets back on track..feels like half a dae without him and i feel a part missing..i think i too dependable on him.so use to having him ard..sigh..think contact him later..

Tmr got 4 lessons of mct..boring! now nit to complete some Q n A..wonder how ting swee doing? like most of the software thingy he do, program zhi cheng do..im like do nth..even in sociology project..wat i came out wit is puny..nit to try harder..and i muz work harder..exams coming cant slack le..muz start studying..

now watching sassy girl serial show..still waiting for part 2 love magicians..i hope i can manage my time well..and as i study mayb can influence my dar..*i mus be dreaming man*

2006-07-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

Darling very sweet to me on saturdae to celebrate 18 month..wow..time sure pass very fast.cant believe we together for one and a half year le..wonder wat 's in the future. i juz duno wat to do to help..all i can do is to encourage n look aft u while u sick..Get well soon!!!

todae went to meet cher awhile..din do much talking..at the end, she post me with a qns: "angela, do you think you change since u left sec sch?" hmm..think somehow i change alot.duno whether its gd or bad..all towards a certain extend..i onli noe im slacking now..haven been attending lectures for quite some time..i need motivation!! but at the same time i need to motivate my darling too..i miss him..thank you dear for being so nice to me all the time even ur mind is full of results trouble and blah blah blah..

i shop alot recently..juz got some music frm my mum yesterdae..money and work issue..sometime i noe im in the wrong but i juz dun wanna listen and feel that im right, she's at fault..nvm..she cook me a nice meal juz now..forgive her..hehe..she rarely cook for us and she cook well..i muz really learn for her so i can cook for my future husband..cuz i felt tt im such a lousy woman..lolx..

Italy won the world cup..betting stops..late nite with not enuff slp..go work or sch with puffy eyes all end..as i grow older, watch more matches, realise the whole thing is so unfair in some ways..wat if the refree is bad..i tot singapore refree suppose to be gd so where is he in the finals? enuff random tots..i noe nuts abt all this..

work was getting worse, i feel...everyone quite nice to me except me..but it makes a difference..it spoils my mood and i can because of her quit the job..last sun lucky she din come..*phew* though we all very busy but at least i can work peacefully..im willing to rush here and there..with her, im like so pressurised..sigh duno wat's wrong wit me..more over she younger den me..but still my senior..argh...my manager might transfer me to habour front during oct...lalala...far far away from her...but i wonder will i still stay on during my next hols or i found a even better job..i noe i can find but juz tt half of me dun feel like leaving..like for no reason..nvm..aft exams den see how..

my present class seems like alot of silent conflicts..i feel bad for some ppl..cuz i noe how they feel..cuz it happen to me in some way..like wen choosing of partners for lab or projects. it seems like im alone..lucky sometimes hakim partner me..this coming java project..i wonder hu is my partner or shld i do it myself? but i noe there's more problems coming..i drifting awae frm dem..onli spend my thurs break with dem..tutorial oso nv sit with dem..i always late so end up sit thos ppl behind..so i dun like sch..lucky still got my sem 1 frenz...i miss siti and aquilah!! it been ages since we three get together and tok..even to eat..i dun wanna lose this friendship..some times i wonder how my class look at me..i dun care le..half of me wanna graduate fast anoda dunwan cuz i dunwan to enter working world so fast...and i noe i cant get into uni for sure.and i dun have enuff money to go overseas to study..

sigh..life's like that..ups and downs..its time for me to buck up...now attend lecture oso cant catch up..best thing to do is to start studying and faster finish all my projects..off i go...tata!!!

2006-06-28T10:47:00.000+08:00

2 weeks hols sure pass very fast..sch starts with results n piles n tons of projects. during hols, went to attend janice's birthdae celebration at nydc hereen..took alot of pix..think she reali enjoying herself.and she is made to swing this embarrassing g string in public..wahaha..

The sexy pose =X

The "so sweet"doing

They look so happy man=)

sniff=( i gt big arms

All together 11 of us.=]

Toilet time!

Tryin to cover my pimple but look awful

Kawaii neh

pool time!!

Janice hot?? lolx

tink next time den i post up my class outing pics..i sure had a great dae..love all those pictures taking but nt very clear though..my term test results was soso but nit to buck up for my maths le.nit to go back for lessons le.sigh...tuition request to change to wed..means i nit to run n there le..

2006-06-14T13:15:00.000+08:00

todae my socialogy grp come to my hse to watch the yamakashi..wonder wat show is tt ?!?

two days ago..my dearest sweetheart gave me a sunflower..woohoo!!

but so sad some of the petals drop off..aniwae thank you dear!!!

last wed during my term test week..went out with jason n my bro..been a quite gluttony n tired dae..my bro keep eating n play toy..we watched cars n took some nice neoprints. ate lots of junks..went pepperlunch for lunch but my bro doesnt seems to like it.dinner went circuit rd..wanted to eat the nice hokien mee but the stall close.. overall its still a great dae=)

took some pics onli..i like the first pic with my bro behind the board..

oh ya..i went to dye n perm my hair last fri..it turn out bad..very dry n spoiled..i dun like my hair texture.i shldnt do both at the same time..why those ard me hu perm all turn out nice..=( sigh..

yesterdae, tuesdae..a boring dae for me..din go out..stay at home slack n do stupid things.tried to put all sorts of make up for my sis n me..i tried plaits for her too.as for me..i think i look like some ghost..

my sis's hair..she dun allow me to post pic of her face..watever..

my maid,sis n me prepare 2 new dishes for my family..but maid cook...yummy!! the food all gone,not a single leftover..haha..=] i make frenchtoast with sausage for afternoon snack..it been quite some time since i prepare or cook..a boring dae but still manage to do something..work out some functions of my cam.. the colour function!!

tonite will be celebrating janice's birthdae!! at nydc..guess it will be quite fun..haha..

Happy 19th Birthdae to janice and shao wei!!!

2006-06-04T21:00:00.000+08:00

tmr is my maths paper and i knoe nuts abt it.sigh..guess im gonna flunk my engineering maths 3..todae release work at 1 den meet yee..walk ard ms..she bought a few things and we each got each other a badge..b4 tt went mac..two things happen..quite weird though..And i bought two bks!! yeah..got sth to read..but muz try to wait until term test finish.

din manage to go study..argh!!! i been into the not so nice mood todae.morning quite unlucky with bad tummyache..hope i can mug till drop later..feeling quite bloated n sleepy..

sorry dear..i like keep showing bad attitudes to you lately..i realised im nt as patient as last time.i will get into so not nice or very fragile me..thank you for being so patient with me.

2006-06-02T23:58:00.000+08:00

woke up late todae..lucky dad fetched me to sch.sch was short.telap juz sit,tok nonsense n do some work..got some surf net or read..telprin lab like onli 1 hr.but got assignment to do..my term break is filled with many things to do.think i dun even hav time to work.

aft my lessons.went to meet some president or tt cca..wonder can i cope nt.but it seems interesting.and i dun like to go into a sch without any involvement..mayb im used to it since sec sch..ate with my class at itas again! met yee n mei zhen..jason join us later..oh man..hav fun toking n joking with dem.it been a while since i realli lighten..

after tt jason n i head off to town.this pair of ppl come approach us with $10 voucher for body nits..and we started chatting..the woman doesnt look like 30 with 2 kids.so super young looking..nice woman..she asked whether we wan to join dem for part time..some advertising company..seems like some high paying n slacking job.

i watched xmen3 again!! i juz watched it with my sec sch frenz the nite b4..haha.aniwae it was nice =) had a great dae until the end.

im sorry dear..everything juz turn out bad.i myself duno wat to do..

certain things in life juz happened n in the wae u dunwan it to.no matter wat u do, things still turn out tt wae.how to be more patient n more understanding?!? todae's incident is mostly my fault..i juz duno wat to do.always sae things without thinking.i dunwan to hurt u..u noe u mean so much to me.sometimes i juz duno y im like such a small kid.i noe im in the wrong,giving problems yet i still so stubborn..in the past, im nt like tt.wat's wrong with the gal.

2006-06-01T15:57:00.000+08:00

nowadys i rarely blog but so much tots in my mind...and i doubt anyone will come n peek into this outdated ugly webbie..time to rant!!

term test is coming in like few days..im nt prepared yet.tot still got one more wk..

some how i feel tt i dun understand myself anymore.things werent so easy as it goes.many things to handle..everydae faces different kind of problems.outside it seems so easy n fine..behind tt lies a million of hidden questions, pain n sorrow..nth's wrong..everything is near perfect, the wae ppl expect..

my days in this world juz seems so normal..nth special..recently got close to my classes in tel class..a nice bunch of fun ppl..and think im drifting awae frm liyana n shi hui tt gang le..

later gonna meet friends frm sec sch!! yippee=) love hanging out with dem..so sad juliana cant join us.now in the library slackin..copy notes n charge camera batery..hees..

All the best to everyone hu is taking term test!!!

2006-05-13T15:24:00.000+08:00

Im JEALOUS!!!!

She juz too perfect=(

2006-04-30T17:04:00.000+08:00

Sigh..sch starts le.my telecom class nt much of T04..onli zi cheng n me..lucky liyana very nice to me. saved seats for me, wait for me and blah blah..so sweet of her.so now so called hang out with shi hui and her.but most of my lunch breaks and long breaks with yee,janice n lynnette..on wed, while having my appel 2 lessons, i went in late and they cheered..oh man..i feeled so warmed inside, feel so welcome..miss my class man.now i understand how janice and the rest feel last sem wen our class still sticks together closely.nvm..we are always frenz.

now still trying to cope with my health den to my studies.I want to study while i have the mood, later ending of sem i chao slack le.now every wed i go library watch movie.got 3 hrs hrs...

During my hols, went out with yee, lynnette, mei zhen and janice..have fun with dem..so sad lynnetter cant join us for dinner.took a few pics tis time..post it up next time.

I miss all my friends!!! todae was thinking of my three buddies in sec sch..wonder how they are doing..And i miss my two bfs! =) best fren n boi fren..cant wait to hang out with those that i rarely see or hear of dem..

2006-04-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

on the 25th of march..we gals went to marina bay the zhen fa to eat steamboat..to celebrate our dearest fren, juliana's birthdae! hope she had fun tt dae..i too had fun..miss dem loads..its been ages since we last hang out..below are some pics..cant load all the videos..like sth wrong..aniwae all the videos very funnie..

juliana wishing for her prince??

our food!!

our sparklers time!

the smash up cake..aniwae..it was a superly duperly yummy cake..royal chocolate frm sweet secrets.
our group picture =)

juliana's head was being pushed dwn by chicken..hehe

cute rite? lolx
the beaten up face..=D

presenting the pirate of the dae hu so poor tt use cake to cover one side of the eye..

we had live prawns fun too..so funnie.all of us scared the prawn will jump up.den we experiment different methods of cooking it.hehe..we play sparklers until the whole bus stop filled up with the smoke..the next bus with the alighting passengers seems pissed.wonder how we gonna celebrate next birthdae!! its lydia's turn=D

2006-04-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

my auntie's birthdae

class gathering of former T04

i manage to get one candid shot..the rest of the time forget to take pics..watch wolf creek..story line abit lame.

lynnette very cute rite..meizhen's hair do some flying.yee and me took de.

some of my bro's creation using lego

many things happene..lazy to blog and post pictures..went jumbo eat at seafood centre with many nice dishes..family time! below are the pics for that dae..=p

2006-03-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

i feel so lost todae..feeling so confused.like wat's wrong..juz feel like living in my own world.nth to worry or trouble..and most of all, nt troubling anyone..feel like putting a front and hides..sigh..

at times i feel so insecure.all da gals are like so much better den me.they got very gd characters, pretty and most of all they are so difficult frm me. i noe im different frm all da gals u mention.sigh..i dun like wen u compared at times. hello...im angela nt them..im proud of myself.so wat i changed..i like the wae i am..argh....im going crazy..enuff ranting..

later gonna celebrate my auntie's birthdae..quite late todae cuz mummy got sch todae so will be late..yummy!! got pizza, chicken and ice cream cake..on my dad's and bro's birthdae we ate cookies and cream ice cream cake..tt is so yummy..my mum's we ate black forest..so chocolatety and double yum! =p todae try mango tango..shld eat more ice cream cakes..*slurps*

tmr going for 2nd part of interview, hope i get in. =)

2006-03-09T00:04:00.000+08:00

last week went canderina's shop and find her..hehe manage to try a few dress and tops..oh man, they are quite unique in each design..camers memory full but manage to snap 3 shots..one slping..haha..

i like this qibao best..but very short and wild.. nice black with the lace.=)

this is the pink one.from here looks common but its nt..its niceee...abit translucent on the top part..=D

this is the one with me slping.. nice purple rite? teeheez =p

sorry hp camera nt very clear. if ur interested in all the chinese qipao or wat can come here..is at far east opp 2cm shop.forget wat the shop called.i pei her handled the shop awhile..it was fun..i get to wear the nice chinese jacket..reversible too! but its like 200 plus..oh man..i love trying clothes..i wanna shop. so long din reali shop le..but i nit a job too!! oh ya..i got a tutoring job but aft one lesson i was sacked..im like so terrible..think i got the thing to update my blog le.i got tons of pictures to load..cny trip, chingay, v dae,dad's and bro's birthdae..and its my auntie birthdae le..i managed to remember this year..oh man..she been wit us for like 11 years..like part of our family le..happy birthdae to her!! woohoo

2006-03-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

its been ages since i last blog..guess i lost interest in it.many things to update and blah blah..juz plain lazy and i nv reply some tags..sry frenz..juz feeling so blog during the stupid hols with no job.and i duno y recently like ther's sth hinder in my mind.i noe it cant be true and its impossible but i juz duno why..it juz flashed back..guess im juz too bored till will thnk of all tt.bOrEd!!!!

2005-10-29T03:03:00.000+08:00

Wat's the real me? who i am to people,friends,family and to people ard me? i duno where im heading to and where i stand? sometimes i feel that my life right now is in a mess.i feel so lost at times.wat is my past and my present? i dun even noe wat i want for my future.where im heading to? come on angela, wake up and get lost..

reply to tags:

aquilah: oops..mayb next time or u sms me ya add..got ya no dwn le.keep in touch okie?

Lynnette: thanx gurlie

ben: thanx..u 2

jaslyn: i will..miss ya too

2005-10-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

im sick!

todae stay at home again but i spent most of my time lazing around and oinking...*snores*

mondae

went to ngee ann poly play badminton but i nv play cuz quite lousy i think. but i feel a nit to exercise..someone complain im fat! hrmph.. met sheena's lao gong, ah chew at sun tec to eat kenny rogers..yummy! love the cheesy macoroni..sheena and ah chew both think that the food not very nice.

tuesdae

went for my dental appointment, was late think the asst nurse was pissed..aniwae i hate goin tot the dental.my teeth hurt so much until i cant reali slp.till now i still 'ouching'..and i chose the wrong colour! stupid dark blue.aft that went to find dear den meet sheena..we tried the durain muchi..hmm..nt bad, juz that the durian inside ok okie..is at taka basement..went to eat pepper lunch aft that, i cant finish it because of my teeth..the staff allowed us to bring in milk tea frm mos burger..pepper lunch always provide good service.*thumbs up* met cher, shop around, i bought a big orange hairband and blue pearl ear studs..(oh man..i lose one stud todae...fault:brenton) go find jason den four of us went NYDC chill out..the good old daes wit stupid lame crappy talks..but tt dae was still quite alright.manage to tok to sheena abt kim..sigh..i got no comments le.and im broke!!! i spent alot on stupid things..eg. bought 6 bucks of gummy sweets wen i cant bite.left nydc at ard 10 plus..cher left ard 9.45.

Thanx dear for sending me home everytime!

hope that i can get well soon..lucky this whole week nt working until the weekends.money time! im super broke..next week i tried to work more.lesser daes.my hols coming to an end.no class gathering.thinking of bbq at east coast at nite when the muslim break their fast. who's willing to plan wit me?

sigh..im cant donate blood.stupid heart.why sometimes i cant do this cant do that...urgh..

reply to tags:

lynnette: thanx..im okie onli.sometimes being urself is nt enuff..and human are changing every min/sec..and ur cute..

2005-10-17T03:21:00.000+08:00

todae money nt easy to earn..dinner so busy..2:3..jason and me so tired man..whole dae so busy..alot of old channel 8 actors and some old singers..oh man..din noe they so mad and drank so much..reasons why i love serving banquet and dunwan to change job: 1.very flexible 2.pay nt bad 3.recieve pay on the dae u work 4.meeting all sorts of ppl and experience different things (fun)...

now is 3.05...
Happy birthday Emilyn!

todae din eat much of the 9 course meal..hehez..but ate lots of chocolates..yummy!!! brought desiree and livia in..hope they will like the job..but they wun work long..going to indo..

this morning tok to my sis, she as usual bragging about her frenz and how fortunate she is and blah blah blah..she said she loves her social life..wat abt me? hmm..i began to ponder on tt qns..think sometimes i work too much or spending too much time on certain things tt i dun even noe..i sort of neglect my family..lucky this coming week i will be home often..hope so... *roll eyes*

had some thots over the weekends..about how some ppl are so strong that at times i admire dem..i mean emotionally..bqt at times is a little complicated inside but i did learn a little life experience inside..juz like in GM..i love my secondary sch! my best years where i learn so many things frm frenz and teachers..sometimes i wish i am a girl hu everyone will agree that im a nice gal..i feel that i try too hard at times..now i duno wat have becomes of me..i onli do wat i wan to do..sometimes dun care wat ppl think.i felt that i overlook alot of things at times therefore i make alot of mistakes.but at times i juz wan ppl to appreciate wat im trying to do though im still wrong..aiya...nth is perfect in this world...

im toking craps again..*yawn* gonna turn in le...oh ya..brenton bought two tortise bt i will scream wenever it come near me or they sue it to scare me..oh man..sis called me coward..lolz...think so..

2005-10-14T19:25:00.000+08:00

guess i juz play along wit it.read elena's blog..i suppose to write out 5 quirky habits that nobody knows about myself and ask anoda 5 people to do the same thing in theirs blog..

hmm..this is kinda hard *bleah*

1.i like to take pictures of myself even wen i juz woke up..hehe

2.i like to walk around the hse wen im bored and on the fone..

3.i like to stare at the mirror wen im bored too=)

4.i like to stare and observe people and start thinking mayb why im so easily influence.

5.i like to think of many ways to make homemade things but never reali put it into action..and i love origami!

okie time to pass on to 5 other ppl!

yee.lynnette.aquilah.janice.jessica...

have fun!!!

2005-10-14T19:07:00.000+08:00

its been a month since i updated my blog..anywae i dun think updating will be any use..todae im off and im so bored though is onli a dae at home.but its okie.can pei my family.learned how to cook a dish..haha..nit to learn cooking le..if not...my life nothing special..all i do is shop and work..ermz..actually i work alot.jason is back yesterdae!

actually suppose to go to see jas perform bt elena din see the date properly.suppose to surprise her..hehe..miss her man..

11th october 2005

on elena's birthdae, cher and me like some auntie marketing in bedok central to get food..like got alot of junks bt we both like spend alot..aniwae i hope she enjoy herself tt dae.went to her hse eat,watched finding nemo and play some board games..wahaha..and finally camera time!!! shall wait for her to send me the pic so i post it up next time...so sad jas was sick therfore cant make it.and chee kian was ther too..=)went to darling's hse..manage to tok to his mummy..starting kinda awkward..hope she dun have bad impression of me..*cross fingers*

30th sept-1st oct dancethon

tt camp did change my attitude towards dancing..i dun even feel like turning up for the last lesson..shall nt say much..aniwae i did have fun.first dae ALP (adventure learning program) was great.those low elements games like trust 4, balancing thingy and more..the onli high element is flying fox..*whee* at nite we watched 'you got served' and center staged'...but some ppl dozed off le..at nite we got our jam and hop..quite alright..make some friends during the camp bt nv take their contacts.i shall skip the nite part..oh ya..we onli slp 1-2 hrs..is a dancethon! dance for hours...lolx..following morning was did had a great workout wit street jazz frm L.A dance connection where jason learn his hip hop..=p and salsa..oh man..i love salsa though i catch the moves quite slow and the partnering thingy with the hand movements..and later on more torture..*mouth zip* tadah! camp ends at 5pm..

16th sept 2005

fauzi and aquilah's birthdae! im so sorry.din manage to celebrate or even wish ur properly..hope ur did enjoy ya special dae!!!

life still goes on...with more birthdaes!!! lucky i got justina's and qixin's birthdae presents le...left my beloved sis..wonder wat to get..hmmm...

sometimes there's many thots that i wanna blog down..but juz no time..im juz so bored and tired of looking at the different people in this world..i myself are facing more problems..*main problem: change into a bad gal* sigh...

reply to tags:

lynnette: thanx=)

my best fren: yeppie..i love it..thanx so much..we haven meet up..

shihan: thank you!

ben: yep..i love it too..eh..end up we dun have any gathering and hols gonna end soon.

yee: welcome=p hope u like it as much as i do

2005-09-15T03:05:00.000+08:00

todae watched longest yard wit jason..wahaha...is a must watch..nice and funnie..i couldnt help laughing thruout..u may find me stupid or wat..i dun care..i wanna laugh..deep frm my heart..wahahaha..think im reali mad..recieved jessica's mail..thanx gurl..*huggies* it is very nice and unique =p tmr gonna go DFS for interview b4 going to work..hope i get it man..wish me luck..forget wat i wan to blog aniwae..

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:yee: aiyo..relax..he as usual fooling ard =p

:ben: okie..im working too.very hard to organise..last time hu organise de? aniwae u gt blog?

2005-09-15T02:30:00.000+08:00

If You're Not The One
by Daniel Bedingfield

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

i just like this song and think lyrics nice..no special meaning behind it=p

2005-09-13T00:55:00.000+08:00

fridae went out wit jason, watched herbie fully loaded..quite funnie..think still okie..next show is longest yard! went cafe cartel to eat.nv eat ther b4..so funnie..we crap alot again..he laugh non stop..aiyo..bt we spend hours deciding on a stupid name.wahaha..

sat went kbox wit the gang..yingru,juliana,serene,puay shian and cher..cher and i went in late sort of smuggle in..wahaha..end up still quite ex..fun wit those mad ppl ard singing stupid songs.haha..the room nice bt screen so high..end up all of us were standing on the sofa to sing..went church and DG wit cher..oh..DG was quite fun..think im gonna follow up..alot of interesting things to share and hear..and we gt a special and only boi inside..sherlyn's bf..lolx..he and her so cute..very opp.. oh ya..my dearest jason come look for me like at 10 plus..quite late le bt we manage to see each other..oh man..*im melting*

sundae went back to work..first time working wit walter..he like weird weird de..haha..guess tommy will oso be like tt..walter's english quite terrible..couldnt help laughing.wonder how he can be the ass manager/captain..place very cramp bt still can serve well..rajan put both of us together again..he is gd..haha..he even thank me personally for helping him out on tt dae..now if he nits help for function, i will try to help.went home slept at 3 plus..my world rains alittle..read story book..

todae mondae..ermz..which is yesterdae le..(past 12 am le) nth much..rotting awae and stuffing myself wit food.played rollercoaster tycoon on com..think sis and i are addicted bt guess wun be for long..im bored of games easily..try nt to open it tmr..i nit to learn cooking frm my maid!! im so old le yet i duno anything..and time to tidy and pack all my cupboards and drawers..*yawn* wonder im gonna do..think i take all my dad's vcd to watch..

reply to tags!
:aquilah: dun understand my post? yeah!! sure...give me a call anytime to confirm the time..i dun mind going all the wae to ya hse there to exercise.nit to burn off more fats on my tummy!!

:ben: im bad at organise..wat abt bbq? aquilah's and fauzi's burfdae coming bt fauzi will be out of town..thanx..aiyo..gd things muz share ma..i dun mind..=)

:jaslyn: i miss ur whining man!! u always my gd fren though we reali in different world now..hmm..wen ya free to lunch wit mr lian, msg me..i shld be free most of the time..hold on gal! one more month and ya promos will be over..jia you!=p

:yee: u noe the buttons beside shout? there's a house symbol..click on tt and it will lead u to the homepage..sign up and create a new one..hey hey! the next time i meet u can pass me the music game disc..sry to trouble..im juz bored.*yawn*-o-

2005-09-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

yeah!!! exams finally over=) wonder wat to do during my hols den..nit to work and SHOP!!! i wan to thank yee for giving me tt cute little dragon..oh man..she is so sweet.it might nt be a very big thing bt to me i think tt is very thoughtful..oh man...so sad to think tt we might be in different class next sem.thanx dear for sending me to sch and home!! love ya=p hmm..504 ppl!!! *listen* we nit to plan sth exciting..-heh heh heh- we nit to let our hair loose and have fun..always 504!

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:janice: yeah!! sure..go shopping and try food=)
:ben: ya ya..*pui ar* hehe=p
:yee: thank you!! u can sue it if ya wan..gt a few version de.mine is mini type..thanx for ya keychain=]
:aquilah: yah..can see tt ur bored..chill out one dae?

2005-09-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

You'll Find Love at School or Work

You're ambitious, and you won't let dating get in the way of your goals
And that's why you'll find love at school or work... because you're always there
Shy about dating someone you work with? Don't be. He'll be perfect for you.
Just make sure to go out and have some fun together every once and a while!

Where Will You Find Love? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

-im juz getting bored..but i did found my love at work!!

2005-09-06T12:12:00.000+08:00

sigh..i been a weakling todae..regret telling my mum abt it.more nagging and blah blah blah..she dunwan me to do well huh..watever la..todae's paper is over.and i duno wat im brooding over wat.toking to benson over his art..oh man..i like miss art though im like so lousy in it.haha..oh ya..thinking he was a quiet and shy boi in pri sch..now like change le.thanx aquilah for accompany me to study for awhile..jacob for taking time to teach me though im so impatient and petty..wahaha..thanz emilyn for writing me a letter to encourage me, mum to try to make me feel better? lastly...i wanna thank my dearest darling for accompanying me to study for daes, giving me wake up calls and listen to my ranting..haha..i sounds like im finished my papers..think im gonna slp and study tmr..hope i can absorb more tmr..i feel so much better now..

2005-09-05T03:02:00.000+08:00

is getting late le..i changed my tagboard..bored of tt..hehe..pls tag!!! *yawn* gonna slp le..din study much todae..tok abit wit my parents..dad ar..always gt alot of cold jokes and his long story..quite interesting at times..he told me abt the US disaster and i read abt it in the newpaper..sad ar..fill ur wit details next time..watch the news...tok on the fone wit dear for awhile..tmr gonna study and hav breakfast wit him..haha..i gt a strong feeling both of us will be chao late.lolx..as usual..=p okie..going to my lala land le..*poof*

2005-09-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

*yawn*..juz toked awhile on da fone wit nick.aiyo..he panicked wen i told himw at i studied..so little..he like cannot absorb..poor thing..he tok to siti b4 me, think she mux be completing everything soon.her study method and character of doing projects remind me of qixin.haha..wonder how is her man.. todae studied wit my dearie..i complete near 2-3 big chapt of maths.. think my hse mac nice to study..onli place i can reali concentrate for at least 1 hr.haha..alot of muggers man..alot of j2s..

yestedae went sakae sushi to eat..im like some blur sotong..duno anything and i been so clumsy lately..aiyoyo...

oh ya..did i mention tt on my burfdae i played this piano game on yee's lappie..haha...fun fun fun!! think gonna borrow the cd frm her aft exams..we had fun tt dae..one person one hand..oh man...i like very easily amused..read lynnette's blog..she keep toking abt shopping.im craving for tt for ages..din reali shop for ages..ever since sch starts..im so budget though i still spend alot la..think during the hols..im gonna work..saves and go on a shopping spree one dae wit my buddy....cher ar..wen u are free ar..always busy de..and i nit new shopping bud in tp!!! lolx..food oso can..cuz i always wanna try all da food outside..yummy!!!

cant wait for exams to be over..sigh...im leaving my class soon..sad..i miss u guys man..

i din went back to sec sch to visit teachers bt msg four teachers..mr lian,mr chow,ms tiru and ms ng..so sad i dun have mrs kann..miss her so much..she been a nice teacher to me..mr lian and her teach me alot.counsel me and stuffs..sigh..okokie...enuff sad things..shld i mug or go orh orh???

2005-08-31T03:02:00.000+08:00

oh heyo!! so long nv update le..change my template..bt think im gonna change it during my hols again (if i gt the time) hehe..nv study todae.sigh..tmr must practice more le..

my birthdae juz passed..26 of aug.wanna thank those hu send me msg- jessica(best friend),jaslyn,shiuan,lincoln,mummy,lynnette,weijie,jason(darling)-mms,juliana,shu heng,benjamin,mike,lydia,qixin,emilyn(sister),harry,bernie,elena,eugene law,cher,yingru,puay shian,sharon..testi- jessica,juliana,ying yin, alice,jaslyn,see teng,calvin fong,yan ning.e card-joylynn..online-zhong shen,siti,calvin wong,lijun,peng hao.. thankies for the presents i recieved..frm siti and aquilah, jacob,terrence, calvin wong, jason and mummy's red packet.

tt dae was still okie. bt the nite was speical..my dear come all the wae here to sing birthdae song and a small cake and present.love ya man.my parents try to make it special by invitin a little gathering.bt nt my frenx.they drank alot till gt some spillages.i drank alittle of each.

sat met jas,cher and jason..so sad elena wldnt make it.juz walk ard..

this whole week study week.next wk exams le..*scare* think i better go slp le..tmr meeting jason.

2005-08-08T23:54:00.000+08:00

argh...quite a few interesting things happen in my life lately..lazy to blog dem dwn in details bt think it gonna be a long post..pls bear wit me..gt tp's ccn dae on fri.sat went to recut and straighten my hair.wed haircut was real bad.dun ever go jean yip and cut..take a long train ride to tam...and oh man..i see typical kaisu singaporean..even a cute old woman was frowning and couldnt stop looking.it goes like this " the woman was carrying a BIG bloated shoulder bag, a trolley bag, a small typical auntie bag and a BIG plastic bags with two little kids.gal most probably pri 2 or younger.boi kindergarten.three of dem are squeezing into 2 seats.finally the man beside dem left and they moved..-ya..angela..of cuz they moved- suddenly this woman keep frowning wit her spects near the tip of her nose.searching frantically thru all her 'belongings'...everyone was wondering wat a weird woman..looking so blur and stuffs.everyone was curious wat she looking for.guess wat, is a portable small cute chair and a paper.next, the gal stand up open the chair and sat on it doing the paper on the seat.oh man.do u hav to do tt in the short train ride to score As..next the woman took out many storybooks to teach the son.i couldnt make out any words..i was blasting my music thruout the whole time.bt the cry of the babies could be heard frm the next cabin.the gal couldnt concentrate on her paper.the son was finguring how to take out the last sweet out of the tic tac box and ignore his mother.." aiya..i juz duno how to describe..anywae i go look for my dear aft tt..

on sun..i went to hillsong and delirious FOP..it was nice bt i end it wit a bad tone.sry peeps.i juz duno how to sae.bt i can sae..its nt reali because of God.im juz feeling so bad and frustrated man.aiya..forget it..i try not to think of it can le

mon..i was late as usual for first lesson.fone low batt..bring my charger..charge it during lecture..oh my...my face turn so red..im nt gonna sae anything..i took it out within mins.aiyo...bad angela.leave sch at 1 plus..went ite simei for drum practice..the sch so niceeee....there's alot of secondary sch students..bet we are one of the rare participants without sch uni.i played the TOM..the bartley guys were saying lame things like we shld play jerry or watsoever..the whole afternoon quite interesting.din reali catch everything.bt soso i noe the beats..canderina and janice playing a flat instrument wit a stick like lollipop..duno wat issit called.thank God todae no sun..hope tmr will be a fun dae..and my drum is so heavy..heavier den the red and blue big drum...nt fair..shoulder hurts.haha.at nite ate steamboat.ate alot man..and guess wat..mayb the first time im helping to clean up..okie.mayb mum was rite.i cannot reali live without maid..she even peels prawns for me..so nice..love her man..she watched me grows up ma.did abit thinking in da bus..bt tt's to myself.

upcoming few weeks im super packed..tmr whole dae out..no time to study e maths quiz on wed..inetcf webbie nt reali done..reali muz thank siti..im sry gurl..tcs project nt yet started..next wk digi fund quiz..todae inetcf quiz gonna take in few daes time.next fri performing..and next...my burfdae!! yeah..bt i gt a feeling it wun be a great one.im nt expecting anything either.aft tt first wk of sept EXAMZ!!!!! im dead man..aft tt..i cant even enjoy cuz my dear nit to mug for his promos..sigh..i jus wanna thank God for putting wonderful ppl in my life like jason,family,cher,jas,elena,jess,my classmates,my sec sch khakis.sry if i miss out any..-all nt in order-...most of dem play a very important role in my life and changed me in some ways.keep in touch..and continue shower ur love and care for me..wahahaa...i better start doing my inetcf webbie....tata!!

2005-08-03T01:43:00.000+08:00

i need a hug frm u dear

2005-08-03T01:36:00.000+08:00

argh...i duno why...i feel so super bad now.like the same feeling as tt nite wen i tok to my mum abt the ting.i couldnt stop crying.and i duno wat's da problem man.i miss the weekends wen i noe ur there right beside me with no fear..i noe everything gonna be alright.i duno why, i feel so vulnerable lately.like anytime im gonna break dwn.in sch i appear to be cheerful, smilely and mad or watever..bt inside i juz feel quite bad.like someone squeezing me dry..draining me..i got so many things to do in one month.and im nt doing anything.actually im quite stress abt it.slowly im poning lessons, hate sch and stuffs.why am i like tt.suddenly every of my problems appear in front of me.im glad tt i pass thru most of the things in the past if nt i wouldnt be tt strong though im quite weak.i feel like isolating myself at times.sigh..think im turning in..nt gonna do anything.im sry gurls if i nv do my project properly.i try to cope wit everything.studies,frenship,relationship,family and my life.i noe there are ppl out there worse den me.i din blame god or anything.im juz feeling bad.thanx emilyn for thinking of me and bought me a pair of ear rings.be a gd gurl kie

2005-07-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

i just duno wat to sae.bt i reali dont feel gd inside.is nt easy to spill it out.i wonder how long does this feeling last? im out of my mind soon...can i take it? im juz afraid..im nt thinking too much or wat.im juz living dae by dae.looking happy,smiley and always trying to do wat i suppose to do.have i ever try making things better? tink of ways to improve? right nw, i juz feel reali very bad inside.

2005-07-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

todae been a boriiinng dae for meee~ im like a guai gal lately.go home so early.parents quite satisfied wit my results.bt they din anything much.maths i got 87/100..ckt55/100..expect to fail..thank God i pass..tcs paper 1- 16.5/25..im juz bad at my language.bt at least it is nt one of the main sub.im always broke and im spending money like water.everytime i save it will be gone in a few days.and im trying to be as good as possible.though sometimes i din reali study.i reali shld start studying like term 1 le.now i know nuts abt everything.calvin sae my life like so interesting and fun..bt to me, i feel tt im doing the same thing or mayb one or 2 special things.wat is the purpose? why am i here for? where is my faith? my sis help me borrowed a book: i kissed dating goodbye..she wan me to understand abt dating and getting back to God.he nv forbades us to date as long as is nt sth he is nt happy with..it is sth tt i heard last time.

sch have started.i wonder wat the upcoming problems.i dun wanna anything to happen.but i juz gt this feeling tt it gonna begin soon.i may nt sae anything or wat.bt inside im juz thinking though i dun reali take it to heart abt it.yes..im being careful.aftall hu wld wan a bad one.there's disadvantage and advantage abt everything.ups and downs.hey..tt's makes life beautiful and wonderful and joyful ppl ard u.wun life be boring if everything is so perfect and predictable.bt human beings are nv satisfied with wat they have, everything must be the best.until they taste sth bitter den they come to cherish wat they have.sigh~

im gonna pay my dance fees tmr...heard tt is first come first serve.check it out at one stop service.had to walk thru the nt so shelter bridge..oh my..im freezing the whole dae.till now, i still feel kinda cold.*ouch* my stomach hurts again...oh ya.back to dance.for beginners out of 100 plus they onli wan 85..nt sure abt advance.tt dae check list quite short.todae at one stop service quite long..wth..wat is the audition for man? bt think if tmr i pay shld be alright..this thurs first lesson.and im so blur thinking 6-7.30 is shorter wen both is 1 and half hr..think im gonna wash up and slp..missing my darlingkin badly=(

2005-07-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

im bored so im back!! cannot access to ole psps..can go in awhile onli..grr..irritating..anywae im glad to announce im in modern dance in tp le.and best of all im in the advance grp..*yipee* bt wat i fear most is the warm up..tt part im sure dead..*pulls out all my hair* dun worry..im nt doing it.i nit to pay 30 bucks for 8 lessons.is every thurs...7.30-9pm..as for beginners is 6-7.30..so short and early..nvm..finally can dance!! shake ya body gal!! okie..think im mad todae..though im quite tired.i gt back 2 of my term test papers..quite happy wit me..for digital fundamental i got 42/50..internet and computer fundamental i got 44/50..*clap clap* ..tmr think will be a sad dae for me..getting back my maths and ckt..urh.. guess i will flunk ckt..and hope my maths dun disappoint me..*twist finger*..think i better turn in and wait for tt slowpoke's msg...

2005-07-18T22:21:00.000+08:00

heyax!!!!! suppose to be a long post bt im quite lazy so mayb i sum it up and put pictures!! tots are swirling in my head now and den bt juz plain lazy..oh..i had a happy one week holiday!! everything was alright..went shopping wit aquilah on wed..think tok and walk more den browsing on things.thurs is my class outing at sentosa..it was great.find out frm the pic instead..

took it for fun=p

me and aquilah

aquilah and me!

me huggin the tree! wonder wat the heck am i doing?

my class gals!!i mean locals!!

me, aquilah and janice

the future business woman!! see how siti happy smiling abt her wonderful idea=)

faizil wit the red towel and me..oh ya..and he thinks is nice cuz makes him looks like gt long hair..wahaha..

me, aquilah and fauzi..always acting cool wit the sunglasses

clouds there.

faizil, aquilah and half me!!

peacock..oh ya..me and mei zhen took a few shots..keep chasing it until we off the beach..

pecking on sand?

gals' shadows!! wonder whose leg is tt?

fauzi acting cool on a big first S of siloso

ben wit his trademark 'hi' sign on the last S of siloso

me, siti and aquilah!!

me, act cute aquilah and janice!!oops..she gonna kill me..

that's all..still gt a few more..lazy to put it up..din manage to take the guys..this shows tt i din go boy-looking tt dae..heez=) next is my secondary sch art's nite..oh my..i nv attend any b4..cuz im on the stage instead.dancing!!lalala..it might nt be as gd as other sch bt to me..i think they did improved alot and like a sense of achievement.recalling how past years behind the stage scene brings back happy memories..ok enuff of tt.describe the nite next time.catch up and met alot of frenz..oh..all seems to change..din manage to take pictures of the event bt ourselves..

serene and me!!

puay shian and try to be jay chou de chicken!!

ying ru and shuai cher...*er..did i sae sth wrongly*

cher,me and wan ting

act cute pose

act cool..bt think i failed

the gals!!

2 cute gals!! juliana and serene

me,chicken,tortise,shark and wan ting...oh my..i see lots of chopper aft me!!

2005-07-09T04:11:00.000+08:00

pls take a gun and shoot me down!

2005-07-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

yeah!!!todae is my last paper.still alright..and im so stupid, forget there's a formula bk for me to refer and im wasting my time trying to think of the rite one..its alright..take it easy..its over...later shall treat myself to some catching up wit my pals ..cant wait to meet cher,jas and lena..woohoo!! todae i dress until so casual to sch..wit a cap and like so awkward.wahaha...the stupid bus driver scare me out of my wits..wwanna check my e=zlink card and wat tp cannot use it..blah blah..heck..guess i shld activate poly card le.play safe..bt its like alot of difference btw the price..and i juz took the survey abt transportation for tpjc...

this is the results for the iq test i took..wahaha...bored...

think time for me to get dress and out...mummy nt at home tonite..closer and more open to my mum now..yeah!!love her to bits..next week term break for me..nit to design some web..oh boi..html codes again...argh..nit to take pics too..self-obsession time!! heez=) juz kidding`

yesterdae is jason and me half year anniversary..oh..time reali can be fast and slow ar..went to eat.was so surprised wen he pass me the box..wow..thank you dear! so happy to noe him.. =))

2005-07-05T00:36:00.000+08:00

wat's wrong wit me todae?!? is one of those very unusual bad days..one of those days tt i wanna cry to slp..im feeling out of control..save me!!! i dun wanna be liek this..sry dear for treating u like tt..pls forgive me!

2005-07-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

aiyo....my blog is like so plain..think im sick of it.nit a change.any ideas wat to do?

2005-07-04T22:54:00.000+08:00

sigh..sometimes i wonder wat's goin on.i recieve all sorts of comments, opinions and all sorts of different stuffs. i duno wat's da problem juz feeling abit insecure..wat if this or that happens and this and that...sometimes i feel that im dirfting awae frm the crowd or even the closest person in my life.like anything can happen. i wonder wat will happen to me if im stranded on a deserted island.this week is my term test.todae is my digi fundamentals paper.it was quite alright but gt quite a few mistakes tt i shldnt be making so i lose abt 14 points.sniff..tmr is some com paper.oh my..think im gonna flung tt paper.i haven reali sit dwn and study tt.mayb the most i can score in the html section.thanx to doing and adjusting my blog template.now im trying to look at things wit different angles and end up wit so many answer.sigh.heck.wat im suppose to do.im so lost at times bt nt noeing wat's went wrong.

todae while in da bus, flashes of past flew crossed my head.certain songs remind me of different ppl.sometimes i wonder wat kind of person am i.i like appear differently to different ppl.im nt a hypocrite.as in im so mad or retareded to certain ppl or i appear as a thinking person.aiya.todae tok to aquilah online and in person.think certain things are beyong our control and there's a reason for everything.for now i think there's wrong or right.everything happens for a reason.so now we shld try to prevent it.sigh.i duno wat nonsense am i toking.

2005-06-25T02:17:00.000+08:00

juz read jas's blog.time flies.seem like yesterdae is the dae im preparing for my o's..i miss my frenz badly.esp all my close frenz.jas..i miss you.im sry.i understand how u feel.im sry tt im very insensitive at tt time.jess..it seems like we are drifting awae.i wonder are we still best frenz? think i shall go to bed soon.it isnt a gd nite for me=(

2005-06-25T02:05:00.000+08:00

it been quite some time since i last updated.things in da past, nv gonna bring it up..now im juz me.life still okie.put green braces.lazy to type out wat i do lately..juz feeling abit bad.i wonder wat's wrong wit me.i choose nt to sae bt at da same time i might nt be able to take it.bt im n suppose to be selfish.guess i still can manage.think im abti immature at times.stupid thinking..haha.."angela, u okie?" term tests are round da corner.next wk gonna take back all my quiz papers.lately all the lab grading i still can cope.next wk is da test.whoa..time sure pass real fast in poly.the next min, i might be receving tons of project and leaving all my classmates.change class time.sniff='(... im so lucky i chose telecom for 2nd jae.those hu under etcm hav to depend on their first sem results.and telecom is the hardest to get in.no matter wat, im gonna work hard.learnt my lessons..oh ya..i gt into modern dance.is tt suppose to be gd news? the audition abit tough, wit so many stretching and dance move..im like so lousy..wonder how practice will be like..waiting......

2005-05-31T03:06:00.000+08:00

juz put down the fone.i duno why.i feel a little uncomfortable.i throw my fone on the floor and juz burst out.wat's going man.i dunwan anything to happen.okie.im juz writing rubbish.guess i shld go and slp le.my mood juz change so fast.and i dun even noe wat's went wrong.can some kind soul pls tell me.hav i try hard enuff?

2005-05-29T15:50:00.000+08:00

oh boi~ it been a few weeks since i updated.went to FOC( freshman orientation camp) in tp.quite fun.much more better den the orientation where everyone is present.reasons: 1.mentors dun look interested in the orientation too. 2.everyone like so dead. 3.it juz nt fun.making me feel so dead too.and im sick during tt orientation and i still went.i start sch on 24th of may.everything went well.still okie.though like nit to do alot of studying to catch up.im so lucky i took a maths.i understand the maths faster.im stuck wit aquilah.we both like reali fated to be frenz.frm MI all the wae to tp.same course, same class and same diploma. we share secrets easily.and anoda boi tt we both always hang out wit.fauzi.i like keep hanging out wit malays.lolx.yesterdae went back to work.still look sick.haha.work miserably 6 hrs.and guess wat? jason went to work in bqt.haha.he look gd in the uniform.gt tt look tt first attract me.hehe.*blushing* anywae recently my life still okie though sure gt ups and downs.bt i put it behind le so i cant rmb the bad times(mood swing)..tonite dad's and mum's fren come my hse for steamboat.haha.gonna eat those yummy food.den gonna do some studying wit mum's fren.mayb i do some qns aft i blog.tata!

2005-05-05T21:21:00.000+08:00

made an improvement.slept at 3.30am compared to previous nite.7am in da morning den turn in.everydae so slack.all i do is eat,slp,read,watch tv.feel so piggy.yesterdae evening wasnt feeling gd.juz realise im like running awae frm responsibility and home all da time.i no longer love and admire my parents as much as i did in da past.i dun even love to be home.wat happen to me? wen she tok or scold me? i feel bad bt like no sense of guilty.has my inside turning into stone? im tired at times.i reali live dae by dae wit no meaning.hav i change? can someone tell me? or i juz think too much.at least nw im nt so depress more cheerful le.

okie.enuff abt all those tots.watch a few shows todae.it makes me reflect again.oh ya,read sth in jas's blog.quite nice.wat love actually is? it is so complicated.and i dun wanna take it for granted.todae read a few past e mails.reminds me of the past.and put myself to tt position again.i wonder wat reali happens and why i put myself there.anyway is da past.i love my present.i love to make more frenz,socialise and hang out and stuffs.bt i believe this may create more strains and problems.bt i believe everything will work out.sigh.bt it takes 2 hands to clap.and most of all i wanna study real hard and go into a uni with *ahemz*...

watch the tong hua mtv in bao heng's blog.touching.reminds me of him.den yesterdae mtv gt alot of nice songs.gt one so funnie n retarded.some stupid bus ride.think is mojofly..jesse macartney is cute.den janet jackson gt super big boobs.lolx.enuff craps.IM BORED..cant wait for tmr to come.no function le.canceled.no work no money.lucky i settle some things long ago.hehe.if nt i'll be worrying nw.time to go!! lazy to think and blog le.tata!!!!

2005-05-04T05:23:00.000+08:00

sigh..is alrdy 5 plus in da morning and here i am using da com and listening to perfect 10.i like everydae slp at 4-5 plus lately and wake up at 2-3 plus in da afternoon.my body clock is turn upside dwn.gt this new layout.think is juz simple and nice.heez=)lazy to blog.lots of things and tots wanna blog dwn.next time den.time to hit da bed!*yawn*

2005-04-28T11:17:00.000+08:00

feeling so pissed this morning.woke up by a stupid call.stupid ST.argue to tt guy for 15 min den end up fone being snatched by chandra.saying wat she dun care they nit staff on sun den slam da fone.grr...i noe im being heartless or selfish or wat.go ahead..take a gun and shoot me down.argh...bad morning.nice weather to slp.nit to wake up early to meet frenz for lunch.woke up by a stupid call.stomach pain.blocked nose and slight flu.irritating!!!i nv go back to my air con rm slp le still like tt.sundae seems like a bad dae.mummy.bro and maid go duno where for 2 days 1 nite.mummy seems so excited abt it.hope she enjoys herself.she wanna borrow my lip smooth.sweater and fone...no sweater and no fone.sniff..bad morning..hope da rest of da dae turns out well..

2005-04-28T00:38:00.000+08:00

lately things wasnt so bad.went wit jas.lena.cher on mon.we went to eat buffet in cine.had a great time catching up on each other.went far east to take neoprints.quite fun and nice.hehe.

yesterdae tok to dear on da fone frm 10 plus to 5 plus.whoa..7 hrs.nice chat.was feeling quite bad and pissed.anywae he is there to the rescue.lolx.work in PSA yesterdae.so slack.went starbucks twice to slack b4 anf aft function.took some pic of da port and scenery using my fone.we work at 40 flr ma.so high and nice.this kind of OC is fun.took a grp pic too.heard tt this coming thurs OC nt nice to do.weather so freaking hot and we are suppose to go istana to set up and serve.hope everything turn out well

todae went out wit aquilah.hang out in town.watched guess who.not bad.funnie.sweet.racist..took neoprints too.bought sth too.wonder worth it nt.im being approached by tt guy again wen he juz tok to me yesterdae.he muz be so embarrassed.okie.heck..none of my business.nt interested in tt kind of line.met MI fren in PS aft movie.nice time hanging out wit dem.tok nonsense and craps.gt 2 guys love story so poor thing.aiyo.din noe such things exist.wonder hw the guy can stand it.they gt their business mgnt test tmr.all da best to dem.dey gt a number of tests le.sigh.miss sch bt juz no hw for me.i dun mind staying until poly starts.they gt their small project coming up this sat at tanglin mall.some small 2nd hand fair thingy.muz go ther support dem.they keep da profit.so fun.and this sat go kboxin wit serene.xj.jul.ps.haha.we gonna be mad women again.wahahahahahaha.

time to hit da bed!!woohoo...

2005-04-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

fridae's function juz anoda vip event.to me is nth important or special.juz like wed.life as usual.meeting elena,jas and cher on mon.*excited* cant wait to get together as 4 aft million thousand days.

i wonder how poly life will be? am i regretting anything abt leaving MI.anyway i submit all my forms and doing all neccessary things.now juz have to work towards it.fear tt i will turn bad in poly or watever.im nt da gal i seems to be.i find it hard to be normal or even myself.i find myself having many expectations.and i expect alot frm myself and others.isnt it unfair to others?

aft my dinner,wat my mum comments leave me in deep tots.am i reali doing tt? am i da girl in da past? have i changed? who and wat am i now? over da past few yrs, am i putting a mask in front of me?trying to be someone? jealous or envious of others? im so fortunate.bt why i expect more and everything.greedy angela! i put bad past behind.bringing onli memories wit me.juz some wonderful pages in my book of life.bt da main character isnt da same.it changes its role often.how often i tot of wat if i can turn back da time and redo somethings.i wouldnt have wat i have and be now.everything is so different.life wun be da same.everything happen for a reason.bt where's my reason.why am i behaving like this.im like writing rubbish and my head juz keep spinning wit lots of tots tt i dun understand.i juz feel like breaking dwn.i aint strong at all.im real weak inside.i appear to be understanding and noe things.and i think too highly of myself.im juz a bad plain angela.im nt trying to gain any sympathy or act weak for ppl to pity me.im juz writing nonsense.im sick of life and being perfect.why i so irresponsible at times.having big dreams bt nt turning dem to goals and real things.i feel da world so fake.nothing is true.

okie.i better stop thinking if nt all my hair turns white le.i have better things to worry and work towards it.no use changing back bt work towards the better=)

2005-04-21T14:19:00.000+08:00

i been rotting and slacking at home.yesterdae finally went back to work.some things changed.so embarrassing.wen i step in to change my ic.the door couldnt open.the stupid security keep saying wat ask me dun mind calling me sweetheart and has to inform dem wen i sign in and out.i was out of my hse quite early and i reached there nearly on da dot.not much time to change lucky put my make up at home le.

'first' dae went back was quite an experience for me.is a vip event.some world gourmet summit thingy.they even hav differnt yr and brand of white wine to each different course.yesterdae gt food server.wine server and runner.we all have to act proffessional.i hav to noe a few table manners.lucky wen young my mummy taught me some.have to serve ladies first.and everything frm da right.we have to serve one by one and place a food wit a specific direction according to the decoration on da food and worst of all table by table.imagine all servers attack one table.everyting have to reset aft fourth course.the F and B director was there too.gt one interesting dish is where the prawns are cook in different wae and the chinese character of prawn was written wit the sauce.everything went well and grand.the manager observe some mistake.oh ya.have to serve clockwise direction.and even plain water all use bottle de.still water or sparkling water.and guess wat?? by the end of da dae.the manager said juz treat it as a rehearsal the main and biggest event is on fri wit 20 tables.10 pax and one table wit 12 pax.more stress den yesterdae wit 7 tables wit mixture of 7 to 9 pax and some din turn up.heard tt we may nit to wear white gloves too.the deco and table setting is magnificent too.the grapes and vines is spread in da centre.the grapes are big,sweet and seedless.sadly have to return.we took some to munch.bring a small bunch home.hehe.better hope i wun be wine server tmr.

i wonder why so many ppl like to treat love as a game.heard alot of problems and conflicts ard me.the worst of all is triangle love.all sorts of tots will creep into my mind.bt most importantly trust and communication is there.and be honest.yes.love cant be force and it can be selfish or selfless.anything can happen.therfore our feelings cannot be control.if u reali no choice and fallen for someone while u in a relationship.the best is to tell ya partner.dun keep him/her in da dark.it hurts dem more.of cuz da best is love each other as long as possible.bt does love at our age last.in marriage,it doesnt last a life time too.sure there's a period of time where ppl go astray or fool ard or feeling is nt there.some put career first.nt all ppl can tolerate all this.tt's wen we nit to adapt and be more understanding.and most important thing is commitment.tt's wat makes a marriage last.wat abt relationship? there is commitment too.bt nt to da extend tt hav to stay wit each other even ya hrt is nt there.some ppl sae u cant hold 2 person in one hrt.bt for me i believe some do.bt it depends on where u place the person.some ppl flirts and fools ard bt their hrt still wit their partner.the partner muz have a big and generous hrt.some is has a little crush on anoda person bt dunwan to break.wat cannot let go or se bu de li kai.familiar? is this wat u reali wan? leading anoda person on and hurting ya partner in silence.imagine one dae someone do tt to u.wat will u feel? if u reali loves someone u wun do tt.if it is because of the length of time ur been together it even worse.yes.its hard to let someone go aft ure been thru so much.bt leaving the person on a one sided love road brings more problems and pain.aiya.this kind of thing hard to comprehend and understand.im juz rattling nonsense.it starts wit a crush den wit like and love.bt slowly it isnt all abt love bt others too.u learn things in a relationship.develop different characters and everything can be appiled to ya daily life and ppl ard u.

okie.enuff of all those nonsense.thinking of writting abt depression bt guess i gt nt much tings to write and i gt no time.nit to leave in half hour time and i still haven bathe and prepare my things.okie.time to go.tata!!

2005-04-17T21:12:00.000+08:00

ysterdae been my happiest dae.i couldnt stop smiling till slp.did had a wonderful dae/nite.some things were cleared and more understanding.details are in my heart.i nv tot i could hear those words so soon.i consider myself very fortunate wit wonderful frenz,family and bf.now my job is to change into a much better person.take note of all my bad habits and characters tt affect others and myself.and i muz be more matured.too kiddy le.life couldnt be complete without you.it wun be so colourful wit ups and downs.tmr is zhong shen's birthdae and i dun think i can go.sad.some things have to push aside.i cant have everything.i can if i wan bt does it do any good to others.i muz learn hw to put myself in other's shoes and do wat im expected even i dun like.tt is part of life =)

2005-04-15T01:35:00.000+08:00

todae went to eat buffet at some sushi restaurant in ceni.aiya.forget the name lor.so full.cher and wanting called me up in da afternoon and suddenly asked wan to go and eat.walk walk den go home le.mum was abit pissed wit me for keep going out.bt she is angry wit sis.my dad too.and my dad dun angry for nothing serious.guess wat? my sis bill shoot up to 156 bucks.tt is like..??first month was 90 plus.2nd month 102 bucks and now...cant stand her.chat always use hp.she noe she exceeds le still use.like free de.anywae parents was okie at nite le

im like so stuck.no names gonna be mention.bt compared to dem.mine is like ten times better.im like communicating wit 3 of dem.and problems lies wit trust and being honest.i feel so terrible and guilty for hiding bt at da same time fear of saying wrong things.sometimes i juz feel like saying things out and put everything back.bt somehow i juz shldnt be there.i dunwan to be the cause of anything.

now 1 plus le still online.toking to bao heng online.gentleman.he noes wat is right and wrong.poor thing.have to stay in MI.hope he can get a place in poly so no needa suffer.he like some advisor to the gals.hope all of us will keep in contact.he reminds me of someone.gal-fren kind.okie.enuff nonsense.if nt a bump on my head.and im missing my dar.muz be snoring awae..ZZz

2005-04-13T21:45:00.000+08:00

decided to blog aft million seconds and minutes..now all i do is rot and slack while i can.dun feel like going back to sheraton to work.i put my braces last month.starting quite uncomfortable.now everything better le though still having ulcers.i appeal into MI.stayed there for one week.sad.withdraw recently.going to tp for telecommunication.hmm.wonder how issit like? been in MI for few days onli and i miss dem lots.met a new fren-aquila.hang out wit her everydae except my last.and guess wat.she gt into the same course as me.yeah!! of cuz i physco her to go poly la.bt i still miss esther,agnes and bao heng.sniff.sniff.nvm.we can meet up wen we are free.

okie.now time to tok abt personal tots.life been so-so for me.things din reali go as smoothly as it suppose to be.there's alot of misunderstanding,tots and problems tt is uncalled for.worst thing happen is i duno wat to do and wat's reali going on.todae den i noe at least something.i duno how long will it last.for i noe it will nv end.im uncertain of any problems tt is coming bt i hope we can passs thru this and get stronger.we each gt alot of other problems to handle and neither each of us wanna add on to each other burden.now my mind is blank and empty.my words seems meaningless and makes no sense at all.

i miss him.i miss MI.i miss gm.i miss dance.most of all i miss all my frenz.wonder how tp will be.will i change? how will i behave? many questions forming.

2005-03-09T13:51:00.000+08:00

toodles!! i wonder shld i close dwn this bloggie.gt back my results.sort of expected it.i din study hard.did quite badly.at least still can go to certain courses and i pass everything.and thankfully gt a 4 for my english.yesterdae worked at poolside.quite warm bt windy esp at nite.get to eat food!!!im like eating one meal per dae or none wit snacks onli.my captain sae i like slim dwn.dun think so.bt at least manage to clear some things yestedae.todae gonna try hard again

mondae is quite fun compared to usual long boring daes.watched hitch again.first movie tt i watched twice.because of wanting(see i so gd)haha.before tt went ate sushi buffet.quite worth it.is like a mixture of seoul garden and sushi buffet for 14.90.still consider student ma.free flow of ice cream and drinks add 4 bucks.we went in awhile so full le.before tt all our stomachs are growling.met desiree at somerset den went bugis together.da girls gt their clips.cher and desiree left.we three took neoprints.haha.nt bad.fun so took twice.haha.bt very waste money.argh.i spent alot again.just realise i spend lots of money on food and movies!! i like watched alot.

i nit money for my braces! nit to save le.hmm.eugene chua introduce me some promoter job this weekends.wonder gd or nt.okie.time to go and bathe.oh ya.i went ikea on sundae.short one.sad* bt bought some stuffs.later gonna deliver to my hse.yipee! and off i go meet my dar =)

2005-02-26T15:38:00.000+08:00

todae just isnt my dae.recieve so many phone calls frm ya.all tryin to pull me dwn.im oredi so worry and scared abt my results.i duno.i dun feel like taking it.i noe i will do badly for it.sigh.at least ur last call is better.at least u understand how i feel.tt's wat i love and admire you.i always wonder how u manage and handle all ya things so well.reali muz learn frm ya.

im back frm da sec 3 camp few days ago.it was okie.i eat and slp like a pig though nt reali enuff slp.had to leave early due to the teeth operation on 23rd.now my mouth keep swelling.at least now i noe im safe frm having the tot of having the germs entering into my hrt.scare me when the doc told me abt stroke and stuffs aft he took my temperature.so i went for 2 reviews aft my operation.both early morning.*yawn* now my mouth still hurts.lucky the swell starts to subsides le.i wonder how am i gonna go and take my results on mon.i look so bloated.

can someone just make me disappear into thin air.im all alone aft all.

2005-02-13T03:30:00.000+08:00

You Are A Romantic

You are more romantic than 100% of the population.

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

2005-02-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

so tired and my eyes very dry and pain.wasnt feeling very good.miss my grandfather.i noe is like my childhood thing but i still misses him.went jogging wit cher and wan ting.we end up eat.walk.sit and jog a little.quite fun.wind very cooling and nit to wake up early.we bake brownies and make jellies in my hse.did alot of fun stuffs at da reservoir.hmm.dun mind doing this once a month.went out wit him.walk alot todae.lost my wae so i jus walk and walk until i shuang and see the bus stop i wan.i wonder will this whole thing last or wat.everything is like fresh and new wit no past and history.i feel like a different me.yesterdae went ice skate again.fall alot of times.butt hurts.*ouch* two days ago lunching wit jas and jing ru and cher at han's.and do some catching up wit puay shian.serene and juliana at pizza hut.at nite eat sakura sushi wit clinton.mengkim and wan ting. feel so full and bloated tt dae.hmm.this week din work much.spend my days spending money and rotting.i nit more money.7th of feb and vdae are reaching.duno wat to do.sigh.there's a meeting on vdae for sec 3 camp helpers.think i go back to sec sch on chinese new year eve.i'll be going to genting for three days again.dun miss me too much.=P tmr going tj carnival or sp open hse.

2005-01-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

din update my blog for a long time.think its time to change my template.no time to maintain it.lately not much function gt oso in da morning or afternoon.todae went ice skating.haha.fall a few times.gt two big blisters.*sob sob* pain.life have been great for me.

2005-01-18T18:35:00.000+08:00

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real

2005-01-18T18:31:00.000+08:00

i dun feel like talking.feeling down now.i dun even noe wat's bothering me.im so bored all i do is rot.i wanna go beach and scream and enjoy the wind.sigh.im tired.

2005-01-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

my mood dampens aft reading all my frenz blog
miss my past and all the times we had.
i miss da laughter.teasing and stuffs
i reali appreciate everyting ur done for me and making my both years birthdae a great one.
i miss my buddy.my best fren.my 'girlfren'.my two close frenz and all my good frenz and those ppl hu tease and bully me
when i work.all my tots are far far away and time flys.
im drifting away frm alot of things.

yesterdae work till 11pm.slack alot.function end at 7 to 8 plus.no food cuz all tabao.den do set up for ballroom 3 and 4.i reali enjoy working there wit nice ppl.though got pervert captains.haha.but they are all very nice.cher and i keep laughing at retarted arkbar( not sure spelled correctly).had a little tok wit shao wei and cher in da bus.yesterdae sort of an exciting nite.learned tt jul is his cousin.tis is so qiao.din expect the ah gurl turns out to be her.hehe.will it be fun? okie.i was so shocked wen she msged me and ask whether we know him.

went chalet on sat.quite fun.did the usual thing.bbq and crapping.had a little talk wit qixin.i miss you girly.though we not so close but we are long good frenx aft all.i will rmb u for life.oh.went cycling wit a few gals.quite fun wit the quiet and windy atmosphere compared to hot humid crowded path.i tried the two riders wit cher behind me and i controlled.haha.but its sure nit alot of strength to start.but it so fun cycle at nite.so sad we have to return the bikes at 8 so cycle less den an hour.at nite the class all crowd on the bed and matress and glue their eyes on the small screen.soccer match.quite interesting.during the interval.we talk abt make up and shaving of legs.wonder why tok abt tt.think is zheng wen started it.oh man.he is like hairless.i left early.din expect him to go there.went for a walk saw v and s and the ps.lt.et.hy grp.pass her my stuffs and awhile go back to collect frm her.cuz most of dem not staying for da second nite.we went to the park again.so windy and quiet.nice place.so soothing.walk den sit down talk.den take a cab home.mummy called to ask me stay there tot she gonna scold me.and i mistake it.nvm.reached home at 1 plus.ven is leaving us soon.gonna fly to aust le.we will miss the sweet tall netball girl.=D

2005-01-05T10:59:00.000+08:00

bored.din work for few days.no function.wonder how's everyone first dae in sch and study life.seriously i dun miss sch.i onli miss my frenz and the times we had together.and sometimes i feel like studying and i regret not putting in all my effort in o's.anyway all over le.my sec sch life was quite meaningful but left some bad memories.but is part of life.work till 2 on new year eve.went newton circle to eat.no countdown for me.sniff.walk back to sheraton den to town and to cityhall.wow.we walk so long and far.but it was nice.talk and walk wit JC throughout the nite.wait for first train.er jie la.slp so long.reached home at 7.30 am.parents quite pissed.now better le.he sent me home.and i like the part he came down the bus and stuffs.okie.details onli my close frenz noe.he going back to sch le.work as usual.yesterdae went out wit willard.wan ting.steph.quan long.ee chuan.kim.joseph.kim and joseph din watch the movie.we catch meet the fockers.haha.so funnie.reali nc 16.so yellow.but din laugh as much as i usually do.ppl around me quite quiet.den no one listens or share wit me stupid comments.wahaha.think i too talkative during movies..met him aft movie.left dem.sit down and talk den take bus home.sent me home again.the bus so long.stupid traffic jam.reached home at around 8..hate to stay at home.so bored.nth to do.at nite cannot use com.sis and bro start schooling le.sianz..tv nth to watch.not interested in reading le.aiyo..thinking of getting a new bible todae.later meeting cher and papa to sell all my books.hehe.not alot.sis nit some.so tt's my life for few days.nth much huh.boring life..oh ya.happie new year.hope everyone have a blessed and a great year ahead.=]

2004-12-29T18:21:00.000+08:00

todae went for my heart check-up.at last..=D did some tests and 1 x-ray.make anoda appointment next year.nit to find out is the condition getting worse and partly for the dental thingy.nit to extract 6 teeths (4 normal and 2 wisdom) in a dae.think im gonna faint man.nth much lately.just improve a little.my speed faster and i can tt oblong tray.so heavy.think if i work there long enuff.my right side got big muscle le.*yucks* -gross out- shld i go to tt countdown at downtown wit dem??

:edwin: wat pigu? arse? wat...wan ting is there too.steph left wit quan long first.they are my da jie.er jie and san jie.

:cher: wow.u very free hor.i can tell u reali very bored.

:terence: ermz...congrats u for? fast enuff?

2004-12-26T14:51:00.000+08:00

yawnz..slept onli 4 hours.woke up early.end up the lunch is canceled.nvm.we can meet anoda dae.where four of us are there.feel kinda hurt and sad for being like tt.i noe we are in the wrong.sigh.nvm.hope everything ok can le.reached home at 5 yesterdae.knock off at 11 instead of 12.give 7 bucks away.hehe.watched kung fu hustle.very lame and crappy.7 of us wonder ard orchard rd.steph and quan long leave first cuz they watched it in the afternoon.five of us got nth to do frm 12 plus to 2.15..the boys ar..keep going toilet.frankie not tt bad.come out tok to wan ting.haha.me alone waiting for tt two boys who stuck in the toilet bowl.haha.the cinemas cheat us.gave us the seats behind the walls.the last person can onli see three quarter of the screen and have to strain his neck.haha.okie.jason sat there.he changed place wit me.yesterdae quite fun except tt nth much to do except toking.the boys ar..very wishy washy.no wonder they are my da jie.er jie and san jie.wahaha.they look like gals anyway.jason gave me christmas pressie.haha.so weird.but tt is nice of him.tok to him thru out the whole show.wan ting sit wit frankie.chung chi alone smelling his smelly shoes.wahaha.okie.tt is my christmas.not bad for me.though i have to work two shifts.earned 77 bucks yesterdae.

2004-12-20T01:59:00.000+08:00

DEAD!!!!

2004-12-15T18:31:00.000+08:00

went out wit jess yesterdae.talk and shop before going to work.bro gave her a little chocolate.think my bro grow up too fast le.he using the com everyday.now three person have to "fight" to use com unlike in the past me alone den me and my sis.and he now uses chopsticks to use.some more traditional way.better den sis.starting of work was abit moody.din talk much or eat much.aft tt better le.duno wat's on my mind either.the two tables i in charge are very nice ppl.one of them is the manager of the whole red jacket group.she gave me a little elephant keychain tt can store little things inside.a pea? tt is so sweet.something frm thailand.the bus arrived late.we crap alot.eat chocolates again.wan ting and me keep suaning the uncle joseph..okie.he is onli 25.and he calls me chopsticks or bamboo.so irritating.he lives so far so last one to go home.wahaha.todae and tmr stay home and rot.nth to do.this week not much work.weekend den nit to work de.hope is not some wedding.prefer d and d...everyday slp so late.cant slp.onli turn in at 3 to 4 plus..yea.going ikea on 23 wit mummy.i miss ikea.haha.cant wait to see all the new stuffs and eat the food there.wish all the n level students all da best.dun worry too much abt the results.ur have done ur best.continue to work hard and strive towards ya goals.. miss cher so much.tmr she is back.lots of things to tell her.fri can see her le.wonder how she getting along there.hope she is not sick.yea.duno wat time is her flight tmr.

2004-12-14T00:48:00.000+08:00

sigh.i just duno wat to say.mind is blank.watever things pop in just voice out.im keeping to myself everyday.slowly not worrying for others.i do not think for others anymore.not even myself.im just a plain empty gal.drifting away frm God..things happen and this time im not gonna think so much.i will just resume to a little gal who look forward to sth each dae.sigh.i hate saying all this.and im doing it everytime.voicing out wat i feel and tots running in my head wanting to share wit someone.

todae ate very little but lots of junk food and fruits.heaty and healthy fruits.jackfruit.watermelon.pear.orange.durian.and lots and lots of chocolates.until at nite i sick of the milo bar.dad help me finish half of it.tmr gonna meet jess again..before working.not sure tmr start work at wat time.tmr den call dem.

2004-12-13T01:16:00.000+08:00

im so bored.its late at nite.suppose to be in bed.reached home early.before 12.kim's bf send me home.saw him.todae dinner not reali very good.my table drank alot.den fight.duno.i wrote 2am sign out they put most of us at 11..so no transport.lucky got kim.a new plasma 42 inch tv.hehe.haven try all the functions.bro spoil de old wan by pouring water.he is so naughty lately.tmr off.yesterdae went far east visit jess.very busy so din talk much.she off i work.i off she work.see still got any more chance we both off den go out.bought a new wallet.same as wan ting except different colours for the wording.i earn nearly 5oo plus le but i spend like 300 or so..big spender.haha.now saving.give mum 100 every 3 to 4 days.den she can help me keep.everyday slp like a pig.until 12 noon.air con on until so late.so mum say give dad 50 too.for electricity bill and phone bill..make alot of calls.dad not free to change for me.

2004-12-11T13:50:00.000+08:00

nothing interesting happen to me lately..except got one cute part time security guard.haha.im mad.went escape on tues.rain.so din play much.still ok.met the two guys who work in sheraton.they work in escape too.two jobs.they reali so desperate to meet new ppl.okie.watever..none of my business.later gonna find jess den to work.hope can see him again.todae gonna work until 2am.haha.free cab home.work quite tired.everyday the same things.but i eat alot.esp when there's buffet.oh my.stomach gonna burst.they pay we eat.old bird said we will sick of the food one dae.kind of like the hotel le.everyday learn new things and interesting fact.quite a few couples there.still got a few married there.wun be update my blog often.the pri6 gathering postpone le.weird rite.out of nowhere.aft 4 years den got pri 6 gathering.wonder how everyone look like=p

2004-12-04T19:22:00.000+08:00

im bored.mummy's birthdae nth much.dad bought a heart shape cake for her.hehe.he's not back yet.duno how to celebrate later.she like so tired and stuff.got her a hippo thingy and two nice face towel.sounds pathetic.cannot decide wat to get.she like most of the things oso got le.think must plan beforehand next time.nv work todae.tmr replace somone so get to work.yea.so got money.tt person end up talking to me.like so weird.nvm.nth much to blog.wander wat "we" should blog.daily life will be boring.private stuffs wun be good either.hmm..mayb ranting abt how life is so depressing and terrible they are.hmm..mayb im one of dem.but sometimes u feel better.sigh.the world is getting bad to worse.i shldnt be a deep thinker.wun do me any good.end up no solutions.think i go bathe le.weird.someone make a deal wit me.wat msg me later.i wan to change plan.must wait.i nit money.23 is reaching.mayb im backing out.

2004-12-02T22:01:00.000+08:00

straighten my hair.cut my fringe.so funnie.hairdresser say forehead high den not much hair.i tot wat she meant by cutting tt way so i allow her.faster grow.comments?think look weird

2004-12-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

keep venting my anger lately.quarrels alot.nv control my emotions properly.wanna run away.hope next week i work everyday.resting do me no good either.sat and sun nv work again.sat mummy's birthdae.dunoe wat to buy for her.

i want to be loved once again.knowing tt someone is ther for me.someone hu i can turn to when i nit a listening ear and when im sad or happy.im not the same girl anymore.i even change my attitude.and i hate it.is getting bad to worse.cry the afternoon away.tots running wildly in my head.im lost once again.i got frenz and ppl hu cares for me.but i just nit someone hu i can turn to everytime.hmm.oh ya.i shldnt bother anyone.im drifting into my own world.putting a mask.trying to throw tt inside away.but wen alone.it lingers around.

2004-11-29T14:51:00.000+08:00

at last leaving all this hell years of fun.joy and PAIN..4 years of education have finally ended.i noe abit too late to say everything now.is like few days ago but im busy.everyday reach home at 1 plus.im going to break down soon.days went by just like tt with no meaning..all my dreams and hopes are shattered.later work again.yesterdae first dae serving alone.quite nervous.everything went well.they are nice ppl so they understand.i miss all my frenz.i keep thinking the ppl there look alike like all my frenz.i miss dem LOTS..cant wait to hang out and rot the dae off.i did gone thru alot during the 4 years.i haven grown.with all da frenz ard me.each of us went thru a certain part of our life wit uncertainty.insecure and trying to find out who we actually are.is time to move on to anoda part of our life.and once again.grow.i regret not treasuring all my times and ppl.time sure did fly fast.next min i mayb lying in the coffin.ppl weeping for me.ermz..dun think got.all so happy.hmm.the cover outside my body will forever plaster down there.i duno wat i want.cuz i noe i cant get wat i want.working towards it results in more pain and misery.okie.enuff of all this..take care ppl.must enjoy and be healthy too.

2004-11-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

lots of things to blog todae.but feeling so lazy..and i nit a good nite slp..haha.went for interview todae and i can start working tmr.wow.11 hours tmr.wonder can i tahan..wahaha.scare i make mistake while doing my job.scary.like sch like tt.nit to do so many things.cut nails and must tie bun.hehe.watched the incredibles todae.so nice.starting was kinda bored and draggy.ending so nice..haha.i laugh so much.i love da whole family...most of my frenz love jack jack..dash better.haha.okie.enuff of this.time to get some beauty slp.and tok abt my last dae in sch.no more prefect chalet for me.mayb going for pec ROD onli.hmm..hope i can learn sth new each dae..yea yea..=]

2004-11-20T23:51:00.000+08:00

went to steph house todae.me and cher like pig.talk and slp on her bed den went church.ate proper dinner.reached home late.mummy hang out wit frenz.ate kit kat white chocolate.not bad.hehe.

gonna find a job.nit to pay so many things myself.i onli ask you for some advice.haven finish.the first ans is dunwan la.u earn some money can.wat.always ask me work wat always rot at home.since sec 2? other kids work is their business.they are others.not me.im not saying im not working.but is like..sigh.forget it.i noe ur work so hard.pay this pay tt.so many insurance.idiot ppl la.bully ur.sigh.i wonder why ur so kind.u can make ya stand and stop signing anymore cheques for dem.im in da wrong too.bad angela.din do my part properly.u sacrifice so much.provide the best.showing good examples etc.sigh.think i better stop thinking abt this.duno wat is good and bad for me le.

yes.u changed.i tried so many times to tok to ya.wen did u ever understand.u can say im nagging or wat.im not there to nag or scold ya or wat.i just wan ya to be a good person.i just dun understand why u changed since pri sch.sigh.mayb i shldnt care.but i love you.i wan u to be good.sigh.

enuff of all those stuff.making me seems like i always sad or think of all this.i wan to be happy angela.dad got free M card from M1..inside got 5 bucks..he gave it to me.think da call is cheaper den my own number.but sadly to say.no extra fone.i wanna change line.discuss wit dem aft o's.still have to pay so many things myself.stupid braces.wonder why i nit it for.i dun even care whether nice or not.stupid wisdom tooth.okie.cant slp.everyday slp so late.last nite read story book until nearly 3.finished le.nice.kept having terrible headache.

2004-11-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

yea!! TAGBOARD is back..hehe.ermz..lazy blog.next time ba..lazy think.one more paper to go.miss jess and lein.cant wait to meet up.mon go kayaking.tanning time.=p dad bought ice cream.time to get fat

2004-11-18T16:11:00.000+08:00

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2004-11-18T14:35:00.000+08:00

i dun feel good telling you all this.im sorry.think im just out of my mind for the time being.i badly nit someone to hug me and tell me everything will be fine.im creating all my problems.i can choose to run away and nv turn back.

2004-11-18T14:08:00.000+08:00

think todae paper easier den paper one.but dun think i can score.my A is gone.pray hard tt i can at least get a B..sigh..so bored.gonna slack and start sci tmr.

hmm.nth to blog.forget wat i wan to type.tired of everything.sigh.i nit to pay for my own braces le.duno nit to do for wat.just leave it there and rot.wahaha..and a old woman sitting at one corner looking out of da windown stoning.okie.tt is so pathetic.gonna stuff myself wit choco again..yum yum..

dreamt of sth weird last nite again=]

2004-11-17T13:43:00.000+08:00

geo is ok todae
choose 1.3.6
did development cuz da rest not sure
suddenly forget how to calculate GNP
eyes so dry and pain
nit more slp
lazy type whole sentence
tonite nit to do more maths
tmr a maths mon sci paper one
and IM FREE frm o's
but i dun mind take again but not next year
think i din put in much effort
gonna do well for a maths and sci
must chiong all da wae
stop slacking

2004-11-16T22:06:00.000+08:00

din reali study geo.slp frm 2.30 to 6 plus.wanna slp more.onli get to slp one and a half hour slp in da night.dun think my art gonna be good.so simple.no background colour.nv bring container.so stupid.watched da champion.nice.onli time i can watched one hour.wonder wat shld i do aft o's.think not much difference for me.slack.nit to find some work.den buy my own fone.mummy ask me pay myself.sniff.i wanna thank eng tong,jessica and gerald for staying up wit me to 3-4 plus.wow.they so good rite.try to keep me awake and motivate me.nearly give up and pull down by parents but they pull me up.okie.nit to study le..enuff slp todae.time to hit da books and bed.so many birthdaes coming up.nit to go on a shopping spree le.

2004-11-15T18:41:00.000+08:00

why i always like tt.im lost once again.wat got into me.many tots in my head.i tot i found my way out.no i din.i still stuck.have i let go everything? the shattering of all da pieces can be felt again.da aching and stuffs.never ever gonna fall into any trap.u will nv ever come out.unless u dig thru to anoda trap..craps.my drawing sux.i cant even draw a little boi properly.

2004-11-15T15:28:00.000+08:00

find so many pics for art.sigh.so lazy do and my drawing so ugly.new template but dun think is nice.next time den change or wat.nit to complete art by todae.yesterday nearly explode.ate alot.order alot of pizzas and kfc.still got leftover.den grandpa bought alot of fruits and CHOCOLATES..hehe.gonna be a piggy soon.i can eat all day and turn fat.okie.back to my art.

2004-11-13T13:53:00.000+08:00

went to sch wit mummy to help my sis collect results in home clothes.all teachers tot im suddenly become sec 2.wahaha.so funnie.how i wish i can be sec 2 again.nit to pack my whole study room.relatives coming tmr.tmr got tuition at 3.wonder issit 2 or 3 hours.sigh.ask mummy whether i can go chruch.she said wat dunwan den dad will not be happy.sigh.mayb i have to wait.pack le den out again.

2004-11-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

my whole body just so uncomfortable.im putting tt away.i had finally decided wat to do for my art aft 3 to 4 changes.hope it works.

yes.i noe im in da wrong.but why cant you just let me have some time to do this and that.okie.everything is my fault.happy? i always look up to you but sometimes i jut dun understand why u must behave like this.all i noe is for all of us.here i am doing my stuff.i admit tt i slack alittle.but i din ur so called walk up and down like i dun care.i did study.if u wish to have da room back just say it.

i hate o's.and i dun wish to retake or wat.i wan it to quickly end.i dunwan da past le.putting everything behind and just live the way i shld.went to esplanade todae.the roof access change le.brings back some memories.nice garden up there.they even change some tiles or wat.

im feeling so frustrated.like im been alone. is my choice.i choose not to share or wat.okie.time to slp.tmr still nit to help sis collect results.now she enjoying herself in some camp tt we are not allowed to go.

you came to talk to me abt ya characters and ask me understand and ask me to do wat is right.see.all along i know you are a good mother.sigh.im just being a bad person.okie.mayb i should change.thinking and saying alone is no use.must show more in actions.time to do some self reflection and do QT..

2004-11-11T14:32:00.000+08:00

had a dumb dream last nite.so dumb.nth to do.printer got problem.hope later can print.playing wit the equalizer.wan da best effect.me so stupid.duno where to move.keep moving up and down.

2004-11-10T20:15:00.000+08:00

My life is rated PG.
What is your life rated?

2004-11-10T19:56:00.000+08:00

just as i tot.slack the dae off.woke up slack den steph called me.end up meeting cher and her in the library.fetched my bro to sch.how i wish im a little kid again.so innocent.all they do is play and play and know the things they should noe.no problems no nothing.i miss my childhood.suppose to do art and study geo in da library.end up reading snoopy comics..quite funnie.we borrowed 5 bks and split among ourselves.quite lame too.ate sth before heading home.todae quite boring.think im doing some music stuff for my art.wonder how i display the music means alot to da musicians.okie.thinking of going to esplanade for books on it.been very tired lately.mind always blank.they shouldnt give us such a long long break.few days in btw papers is alright.lost the study mood.i wonder wat if i dun do well for my o's.i regret for not doing my best and start early.i guess im not meant to have u.mayb i shldnt pester u le.i duno wat ya thinking.i just let myself wonder around in my tots.

2004-11-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

todae chem wasnt ok for me.mayb the most mere pass.din study a little bit yestedae.reach home slack.open da book den zzzz..lucky i study chem early.the onli sub tt i got practice and study.okie.but its kinda bad for not studying.went mac for breakfast todae.yea.at last eat one whole meal.crap alot.so stupid.went library.borrowed two books and chat in da library.the librarian asked us to return da books if we dunwan twice.went bugis.sort of da onli place tt accessible to all of us.shop for an hour.saw a nice pencil case.hehe.watched princess dairies two.very nice and funnie.i laughed most of da time.think im not gonna see doc le.mayb better.thinking of visiting one yesterdae but closed.think now better le.can eat my meal without vomiting.try to eat rice during dinner.just got tt urge.but maid nv cook my share.cus i nv eat rice during dinner for like 1 or 2 month plus.wonder why im like..not as if im dieting.weird.juz dun like my body.later gastric flu.headache.stomachache or breathing difficulty.sigh.duno how to take care of myself.okie.time to do some research on my art.. oh boi.im freezing

2004-11-07T00:42:00.000+08:00

todae went church again.but different de..duno stick wit which one.do a little maths..morning chem tuition.so happi..mummy's boss raise her salary.hehe.todae din eat much.nearly vomit again.but haha, got eat my dinner.shld i go see doc not.got 'personal doctor' to check out everything le.wahaha..slack alot le.tmr nit to put my little head into my books le.one week break nit to do my art.haven sart research.okie..time to orh orh le.tmr can wake up late.yipee..

2004-11-04T23:12:00.000+08:00

went changi airport to study.someone taught me a maths.hope i can do well.dad spend money on tuition.todae e maths quite easy.hope can ace it.da rest mayb juz crawl thru da paper.lit students.ur have done well.dun think abt da papers.time to rest and do ur best for da rest.

2004-10-30T12:31:00.000+08:00

Welcome To My Life
by Simple Plan
Album: Still Not Getting Any

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

2004-10-30T12:15:00.000+08:00

postpone my tuition to tmr.tok to my best fren last nite.cheer me up.the best of all in da world(except God)..pray tt she will accept christ one day.hmm..nothing much to blog.emptiness fill my broken heart.why shld i care.day by day wit no purpose..miss you badly

2004-10-28T13:46:00.000+08:00

din go out todae.stay at home.slep early.12 plus and woke up at 12 todae.wow.12 hours.haven start studying and nearly half da dae.mayb i shld go out study.start earlier.

i break down this morning before going back to slp.i cant help it.you still alive in me.my life changed since u enter into my life.i cant help thinking tt i wake up every morning to find myself so alone and empty.sigh.we can nv reverse da time.i tot i've put everything behind but no.it comes back.fill me wit pain.

time to hit da books.muz reali study my ss todae.din reali read much.think my chem shld be no problem now.sigh.chinese i heck le.not gonna study.mayb juz going thru some compos and some sentence on sunday.

___________*paint my life*___________

You'll Find Love at School or Work

_paint my life_